Makeover

I hate how did I look like in front of my eyes currently: emanating low self-esteem, lack of self-assurance, seemingly lost and unsure. I'm 25 currently, but paging through the last decade (17 - 25), I don't feel much difference. My life has been taken away, the half-part of it, by recurring... dopey-ness? I don't know what it's called. It's probably having something to do with hormones. Or neurological imbalance. I was trying to fix myself, but in the end I still lost to day-to-day mundanities, and forgot about the BIG GOALS at the end of the tunnel. I'm bringing nightingale and an oil-lamp while walking through the cloistered road, but still. It's flickering as I walked, a bit unstable. Human versus the environment, of course the latter would win. I've seen the case of it and I believe in statistics over lofty wishes.

(But still! I admit that humans DO can win, too.)